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WHO ARE YOU? YOU CHANGED A LOT.

           

            I looked at my self on the mirror. Touched my cheek and somehow my tears drained. My heart beat so fast and suddenly like a thunder snatched my heart. Can’t handled it anymore, I fell onto my bed. I overthrowed my self over here and there. The thunder kept snatched into my heart. You should know how does it feel like.

            And then, I opened my eyes and the sun has come out. It was dazzling my eyes. My heart beat normally again. I do know what was happening with me last night.         I do really know it. But, I have to hide it from everyone, including my best friend. I thought it was very wrong. And yes it was.

            I arrived at school. As usual my best friend welcomed me. They looked me in the eyes and started comment what’s wrong with me? My eyes sweld so much. They asked me if I cried last night. I didn’t say anything to them. I just passed them and came into my classroom, sit alone in the corner of the class. I was feeling so terrible. I want to be alone.My bestfriend couldn’t do anything. They just stared me from outside and decided to leave me alone.

I started crying again in the class. Even though there was a teacher who was teaching. No one knows, I closed my face with a book. I didn’t have any spirit to study, life instead. I could’t focus at the lesson. Some terrible things came into my brain. Those terrible memory, annoyed me as hell. I couldn’t throw them at all.

The bell rang and I ran out from school. I didn’t want to meet my bestfriend. I need to hide all of my problem. This is so weird. Only me who understands this. No one could understand it. I went home earlier than before.

Hopefully, with my desicion all of my problem would be finish. And of course I can handle it by time. But sometimes those feeling came back to me. Came and lost. Honestly, the feeling has handled me. But, I just want to kept it by my self. No one would know it. Never! Let it lost as its self. I didn’t care. They could hurt my self anytime.

I was a cheerful kid before this thing happened to me. I lost everything that I ever had before. It feels like lost my soul, over all, not even a half of it. But all of it.