(Inspired by a song with the same title by Labrinth Ft. Emile Sande)
I saw her everyday. I adored her so much. She always looked
so happy whenever I saw her. Her beautiful face without any make up there, her
long brown hair, her smooth skin, her red lips and her bright smile. Made me
wanna touch all of them but I just couldn’t. She was out of my league.
I knew and everybody knew that she had no boyfriend during High
School. Guys always ended up with a “No” from her. It didn’t make sense for me.
A beautiful girl like her didn’t have a boyfriend? Insane. But it was true. She
looked fine. I mean, she didn’t look like a mean girl in the movie or
something. There might be a reason for that.
Well, her name was Rebecca. For me, she was the most
beautiful girl in this school. And also she was the happiest girl I have ever
known. Why? She always smiling everytime I saw her. She smiled to everyone she
met, included me. When she gave me her smile, you know, it felt like the whole
school suddenly turned to heaven. No lie.
One day, I saw her came out from the toilet. I could see her eyes
were swelled. When she saw me, she stopped then smiled at me. So, I smiled at her too. But then she left me.
Yeah, I knew right. It supposed to be like that anyway.
I could tell that she was crying. It was so clear. I had no
idea why she still be able to stopped and smiled at me like that. Maybe she
forgot about those swelled eyes on her face.
She gave me her smile, but I didn’t feel the “Heaven
Sensation” like I used to. And then I realized that it was a fake smile.
As a gentleman, I followed her and asked her, “Are you okay?”
She stopped by my question and looked suprise, “Tristan? Why
are you following me?”
“Umm, I just wanna make sure if you are okay or not.” I
answered nervously. I seldom talked to her.
“Oh, I’m okay. Everything is fine.” She smiled.
“But, your eyes are swelled. Why?” I kept asking her cause I had
doubt if she didn’t tell the truth.
She touched her eyes, “Really? Oh, maybe cause last night I
have a sleepless night. Haha it’s fine.” She laughed at herself.
“Oh, okay then. I thought you were crying.”
“Of course no. Haha. I’ll catch up with you later, ok?”
“Okay.” Then she left me.
Okay, maybe she was true. She just had a sleepless night. So,
there’s nothing I had to worry. And of course she didn’t cry. She was the
happiest girl I’ve ever known, right?
The next day, I didn’t see her at school. So I asked her
friend and it was right that she didn’t come to school with no reason. I
worried her so much. You know, after yesterday’s event. I thought she wasn’t ok
at all.
I opened my phone then checked her timeline on twitter. She
hasn’t tweeted anything since four days a go. At least she tweeted something.
You know.. GIRL. But she didn’t. But then I found something. It was a week a
go. She tweeted “The worst part of being
strong is that no one ever asks you if you’re okay” –Unknown
By that tweet, I knew that she wasn’t ok at all. I knew it
right.
***
Finnaly she showed up at school a
day before the prom night. I had no partner yet. I really wanted to ask her,
but I was so sure that her answer would be “No. Sorry.” So I decided to ask another girl.
A girl I had no feeling with. Great! Her name was Nicole by the way. Why did I
choose her? Because she didn’t have any partner too. Poor me and her.
I didn’t know who was the lucky guy
who wouId be success to asked her to be his partner at the prom. I sweared to
God, he was the LUCKIEST GUY IN SCHOOL if he did it. And I envy him so much.
Thinking about that just made me crazier.
Well, I had prepared everything for
the prom night. I spent all night in front of my piano with a piece of paper
and a pen on it.
***
*At the prom
night*
I was so nervous waiting for her
arrival. I sat in the corner of the room with my partner, Nicole. I wondered if
Rebecca was there sitting with me. Ah, but the fact that it was only Nicole,
made me felt so tragic.
Nicole kept asking me to dance but I
refused her until she fed up with me and went to the dance floor alone. I
didn’t care at all. All I cared about was the only one, Rebecca.
Finally, I saw an angel, Sorry I mean I saw Rebecca entering the prom’s
room. She wore a red dress which looked so fit with her body. She let her hair
cascading just like that. She wore a pair of red rose earrings. She was
the brightest one among the crowd. It
felt like she spouted light or something. Cause my eyes couldn’t stop staring
at her.
But then I saw there was something
less. She didn’t bring any partner to the prom. I heard all the boys whispered
each other like, “She refused me but now she doesn’t bring anybody to the prom.
What kind of bullshit is this?”
It was a bit relieve. She was alone.
I was alone too. I mean, what kind of denial would happen? NOTHING. I couldn’t
expect the impossible thing like we met then she said to me, “Oh, you have no
partner. Me too. Let’s hit the dance floor.”
NOOOOOOO... It was only my big bad
dream.
She had a lot of conversation with
her friends at the other side of this room. I felt so lonely. So I was thinking
something crazy. I stood up then walked closer to Rebecca. I meant to asked her
to dance but then I heard the MC called my name, “Ladies and gentleman, a
special performance for you tonight. Let’s give a big shout for Tristan Maguire!”
I heard everyone clapped their hands and shouted my name.
I was totally failed to dance with
her. Well, it wasn’t a big deal. I was so nervous. But then I conviced my self
that I could do that. So, I went up to the stage and I saw Rebecca was on the
front line. She made me more nervous. If there was a gun on my hand, I would
just shoot my head right there. So I could go to heaven and had nothing to
worry about. God..
I calmed down my self, and then I
sat in front of the piano, I took a deep breathe, and when I felt ready, I
started to speak, “Good evening everyone. First of all, I want to tell you
something about a girl.”
Everyone was so excited and it made
me more confident.
“Okay. I knew this girl since the
first day in high school. She is the most beautiful and the happiest girl I
have ever known in this school. She always smile and look happy everyday. Her
smile is the brightest one. But, one day, I saw her crying. And since then, I
knew if there’s something wrong behind her smile. So, last night, she became my inspiration to
wrote this song. This one is for you, Rebecca Lawrence..”
I saw her was so shocked. Shocked
because of me, wheter I called her name or not. I didn’t really care and worry
about what would happen and the respons of her. I started playing the piano and
sang from the deepest side of my heart.
Beneath Your Beautiful
You tell all the boys,
“No”
Makes you feel good,
yeah
I know you’re out of my
league
But, that won’t scare
me away
You’ve carried on so
long
You couldn’t stop if
you tried it
You’ve built your wall
so high
That no one could climb
it
But, I’m gonna try
Would you let me see
beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see
beneath your perfect?
Take it off now girl, I
wanna see inside
Would you let me see
beneath your beautiful, tonight?
You let all the boys go
Makes you feel so good,
don’t it?
Behind your broadway
show
I heard a girl say,
“Please don’t hurt me.”
You’ve carried on so
long
You couldn’t stop if
you tried it
You’ve built your wall so high
That no one could climb
it
But, I’m gonna try
Would you let me see beneath
your beautiful?
Would you let me see
beneath your perfect?
Take it off now girl, I
wanna see inside
Would you let me see
beneath your beautiful, tonight?
I’m gonna climb on top
your Ivory tower
I’ll hold your hand and
then we’ll jump right out
We’ll be falling,
falling but that’s ok
Cause I’ll be right
here
I just wanna know
Would you let me see
beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see
beneath your perfect?
Take it off now girl, I
wanna see inside
Would you let me see
beneath your beautiful, tonight?
When I finished, everybody clapped their hands so loud. It was
so crowd. I could feel the atmosphere there. And I was so happy. I didn’t
expect something big and crowd like that. Well, thanks God.
The MC came to the stage and said, “What a great performance
it was! It sounded from heart, didn’t it?”
I answered, “Yes, of course.”
“So, should I invite Rebecca here? Where is the girl on that
song? Come on, girl..”
The crowd pointed her. And Rebecca couldn’t believe if she
was the girl on my song. But, yes she was..
“Oh you.. You look so
beautiful tonight. Come here join us.”
She said, “Me?”
“Are there any Rebecca here?”
The crowd said, “NOOOOO....”
“Oh, come on!” The MC went down the stage then pulled Rebecca
to the stage.
Finally, we stood face to face. I was so nervous. I was so
scared that she didn’t like my song or everything I’ve done to her that night.
But, she stared at me the way she never gave to me or maybe anyone else before.
“So, Tristan, is there something you wanna tell to her?”
I answered it easily, “All I wanna say to her has been told
by that song.”
“Sweet! And, Rebecca, how about you? Is there something you
wanna tell to him?”
She kept silent for any second. Until then she opened her
mouth and said, “I don’t know what kind of words I have to say to you, Tristan.
But, would you like to sing it once again for me, please?” Then she cried. But
I knew it was a kind of cry with happiness.
I suprised by her answer. And when I saw her crying, I gave
her my shoulder so she cried on my shoulder. Suddenly I heard she whispered to
me, “Thankyou..” She hugged me so tight. After about 10 seconds, she pulled me
off and gave a sign for me to sang the song again.
So I played the piano and sang the song again with Rebecca
sat beside me. So I could see her face more clearly. And I saw she was so affected
and happy. I knew because she smiled at me with that kind of smile which turned
the whole Prom’s room into heaven.
***
The next days, me and Rebecca was getting closer and closer.
We became good friends or whatever you call it. We went to the same college. She told me everything. So there’s nothing
that she kept by herself which could make her hurt anymore.
And since then, I knew that she has been hurting by something
I can not tell you. Only God, me and her who know about that.
Something that she said to me which revived me was, “It’s just I don’t want to be somebody’s
crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they
think I am. And I don’t wanna them to carry it around inside. I want them to
show me, so I can feel it too.”
There’s so much pain beneath her beautiful and perfect. And I
will try to fix them with all of my heart.
THE END
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